It's a funny feeling, when something you've wanted for so very long finally comes true. I keep metaphorically pinching myself that it has really happened. I feel like I want to play it down, like I do whenever I excel at things. I don't like the attention or the praise that comes with it. Truth be told, I don't think I'm worthy of the praise so feel very uncomfortable when I get it. I tend to shrug it off and say it's not a big deal instead. I am aware that this can come across as arrogance though, or seeking admiration from people, but honestly it's not that.
This time though, I'm trying something different. I'm trying instead to enjoy the congratulations people are giving me. It goes against the grain, and feels uncomfortable, but I'm proud of myself so I'm going to persevere!
Yesterday I had my first counselling client. My first counselling course began in September 2003. Since then I've done 3 counselling courses, one Psychology a-level, an NVQ in Youth work and am a year into my counselling diploma. I've waited patiently to be old enough to embark on the diploma. I've survived on a part time salary, put myself through a year of uni and kept up my mortgage repayments. In amongst all that I've also done around 1,000 hours of voluntary youth work. On that basis I am indeed going to be very chuffed with myself that I've made it to my first client, and accept all the praise that comes my way!
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